a day to remember

2010-10-04T16:42:00.000+08:00

i hate how i never get to mean anything i say.

2010-09-21T17:01:00.003+08:00

why do i even care? i dont even know whats going on anymore. forget it, now that we're friends, im not gonna talk to you anymore. ha. no difference? oh but there is. this time, its not going to hurt.

2010-09-08T19:56:00.002+08:00

you never wanted to fight for me. lets talk about before you got attached. i called you, i texted you, i asked you out. when i stopped, you said you thought that i didnt want to talk to you anymore, but did you even try? and then you went to get a girlfriend, to "get over me". and when i came back, what? you saw that i still liked you and decided to get me back? like a typical guy, all you wanted was a girl to fan your ego. and like a fool, i believed you. you'd gotten over me a long time ago didnt you. you fell in love with her and didnt want to admit it, because you knew the moment you told me you liked her too, i would leave. and even though you didnt want me to leave, you wanted her. and since you already had her as your girlfriend, you didnt want to break up for me, someone who looked like she had a mind of her own. realised it was better to be with your girlfriend who would die before letting you go eh? not like i could date or anything, with my strict parents. she was better than me, wasnt she. you lied, again. you made no promises, because you didnt need any to keep me with you. and when i left, the game was over.

2010-09-01T19:13:00.005+08:00

there was a girl who liked a guy since she was 12. she thought she'd keep it to herself and soon the feelings would fade away. they were best friends, and that was all to it. she summed up the courage and asked him to be her brother, but he declined and she was so sad. they stopped talking for awhile, and then they met on the bus. she invited him to her church carnival and then she found out he liked her too. she was so excited and she felt like the luckiest girl alive. then she started wondering if she should go out with him. she thought he would ask, you see. for her to be his girlfriend. so she thought about it, she weighed the benefits and the losses. and even though she knew she would lose so much more than she would gain, she wanted to be with him anyway. but he never asked. so, she asked him. she never thought he'd say no. but he did. but he never turned her down completely, when he told her no, he told her he still loved her, he just didnt want to start dating yet. so even though she was about to give up, she held on, hoping that he would ask. and she waited and waited, but he never came through. she'd text him and call him everyday, but realised that he never started a conversation or called her first. his major exam was coming up too, so she decided to leave him alone for a little while. they met up for christmas, and she baked him muffins. she wasnt very good, and that was the first time ever she baked something to give away, so she woke up early in the morning and tried it out. she gave it to him, but he seemed quite cold, she didnt understand why. after that, they stopped talking again and they met on the bus again the following year. they decided to exchange birthday presents, as it was in march and their birthdays were so close together. he had bought her something, and she wanted an excuse to see him again. at that time, she was already attached. but she realized that she still loved him, and so she broke it off. they met and had the most fun in their life. she asked him about the girl she knew he liked before he liked her. she asked if they went out one on one, and when he said yes, her heart fell a little bit but she acted like it didnt matter, acted like she expected it. she felt that she still had the most fun ever with him, and thought they would actually work it out that time. a few days later, it was his birthday. she wanted to meet him for dinner, but he couldnt. he had to watch a movie with his sister, and he wasnt able to meet up. she saw him on the bus, and noticed he was really sad. so she texted him, thinking he saw her too. and she also called him many times. she was really worried. so he said he would explain on msn, so she rushed home to go online. he told her, that he had a girlfriend now, the one he liked before her, and she was jealous because he was texting her more than he was texting his girlfriend. he said however, that he got together with his girlfriend because he wanted to get over the girl. so instead of letting her give up, he gave her hope. she waited everyday, for him to break up with her, so they could finally get together. but months passed, and she knew that everyday she was giving him different hints, because she didnt know what she wanted herself. she told him not to break up, to treat his girlfriend well. when what she really wanted was for him to break up swiftly and quickly. she danced for joy when she knew he treated her better than his girlfriend. but she knew it wasnt right. that she was settling for being the "mistress". she wanted him to break up even though she said no. she wanted him to make his own decisions. to fight for her. so even though she knew better, she wanted him to read her mind. she knew he was human, so she told him she didnt want to talk to him for 2 years. she'd post on her facebook about how much she hated him and about how she wasnt going to talk to him forever and intentionally made it viewable to him. he couldnt see the sadness, he couldnt see the conflicting statuses. when she told him goodbye she told him not to stop her. but inside, she knew that if he had just told her not to go, she would have waited forever.

2010-08-31T20:25:00.003+08:00

see how awesome i am right now, i dont care about you or the things you do. the first time that i actually vented my anger at you. gosh that feels so good. and mx was like "maybe she'll be friends with you if you break up" but i didnt want her to tell cos i didnt want to be obligated to be friends with him, and i didnt want to force him to think its either me or her, even though it was. well yea. now its officially over, and im also getting better. occasionally i remember the stupid things that i did, thinking you were still single when you werent, and i get all pissed off and swear. but now i dont even bother, or remember it when im bored just to remind myself that you're a bastard and i hate you. but then again, the hatred is fading away. guess that means its working. i should write a book called the way to say goodbye. aha ;)

2010-07-29T19:31:00.002+08:00

i think you're okay.which means that im okay.im still wondering which is best. moving on or forgetting our past. blah. i think im okay, im getting better. you are too. see time will heal most anything. maybe one day when we walk past each other there'll be no more negative feelings between us. maybe one day when i finally get over you, i'll really be able to tease you about your girlfriend without feeling jealous. maybe that day will come when i go to a mixed school. i just dont have enough close guy friends yet. i'll be okay.

2010-07-26T19:34:00.002+08:00

i miss you a lot, i guess you could say.
a little too much, a little too often and a little more each day.

i wish that life was that simple, i wish that we didnt have to be... like this. memories are all i remember, everything reminds me of you. every single waking moment. i dont regret that i said goodbye, i regret saying it too late, because now i've fallen way too deep. i remember that i asked mx to ask you if you still liked me and you say haha why. i know now, you were together with her that time. haha. all those things i did, i wish i'd known that you were attached. i will never get over that. i wish that you never wanted to move on. i wish that you never asked her out. i wish that you'd never told me you still loved me. i wish that i didnt care about how you're taking this right now. it shouldnt bother me at all. i should be handling this a hell lot better. i should have gotten over you the day you rejected me. i should have woken up the day you told me you were together with her. i should already be sick of you.

we were meant to be, supposed to be but we lost it. please somebody tell me its not true, i'll never be over you.

2010-07-25T18:03:00.003+08:00

i'm trying to tell myself i understand. understand that i was the rebound. because when i asked him who he loved, he said regina. if you ask who he's dating now, its regina. i mean. he rejects me and goes to her. isnt that obvious already? i dont get it. why is he so sad that im gone? i miss him too. it makes me want to die. i know it would suck if he didnt care that i left, but that would make it easier for me to move on too. it doesnt help that i know how much i hurt him. but i was hurt too. i just care for him. alot. i realised it took him half an hour to send me that one sms long sms. and though i complain about him only replying one sms and if he was going to break rules do it all the way, i understand why he did it. because i'd do the same thing too. i try to picture him as a jerk but i understand him too well. because he's just like me. and i dont want to be like that. i wish he'd never gotten attached. we would have been awesome together.

2010-07-24T20:30:00.002+08:00

i miss you. fuck. i miss you so badly.i wish you'd stopped me. that day. and im also glad you didnt. you had a girlfriend. a freaking girlfriend. and you didnt know. i dont know why you're suddenly spamming facebook, whether you want me to see it, or you're just really emo thats why. i dont know. i have so many memories with you, i remember everything we did, everything we said, everything we used to be. i remember how happy i was, just knowing you loved me back. i dont know what happened, but i lost that. i remember how we'd hang out once every week, and you'd just brighten up my day just by being there. we both made sacrifices, we both loved each other. we drifted apart, and we came back, like we never left at all. it was so natural for us to be nice to each other, so natural to want each other around. i didnt want to leave, but i left. because i wanted you to know, how much you needed me. i wanted you to know, how it felt for me to miss you. more importantly, i wanted myself to know if you would come after me. i know that i made it almost impossible for you to stop me from going. but i wish that you'd at least tried. i wish you'd typed out your feelings for me to. if you were going to defy me for not replying, at least defy my " dont try to stop me" too. i dont want to be weak. i dont want to go back to you. but i know that, i would come for you, i would run if you called. i miss your voice, i miss you around. i miss talking about how close we were and how regina was jealous about it. i miss talking about your mums cuteness, i miss talking about how i was baking and wasnt giving it to you. i miss asking each other out, i miss just hanging out. everything reminds me of you. every single freaking thing. you'll get used to it. so will I. have fun with your girlfriend. the girl you asked out, after rejecting me. thanks a lot. thanks so fucking much.

2010-04-18T21:35:00.000+08:00

I miss you a little, I guess you could say, a little too much, a little too often, and a little more each day

God can heal a broken heart, but He has to have all the pieces

I don’t know why they call it heartbreak. It feels like every other part of my body is broken too

2010-02-27T14:01:00.002+08:00

560th post. i kind of miss my blog.

but livejournal is so much more convenient

2009-09-04T18:47:00.001+08:00

im migrating to livejournal xD

hahahahaha

abit sad,

cos i wanted to a long time ago,

then i forgot and created the skin. argh =/

haha new website,

leo-kocc.livejournal.com

haha awesome right

heartbreaker ♥

2009-09-03T18:58:00.006+08:00

i miss you
i want to forget you
everytime i think
im this close to letting go
you make it impossible
i have help this feeling of ecstacy
everytime i hear your voice
when i see you on the street
my heart goes mad
when i think i can finally like someone else
you fight your way back into my heart
dont manipulate someone like that
dont you know the effects your words have
dont you know you're the reason i cry
dont you know you're the reason i smile
dont you know you're the reason i breathe
dont you know you're the reason im alone
dont you know that you're doing this at all

i dont love you anymore

~~thats what i wish i could say~~

2009-09-03T16:11:00.003+08:00

POWER. RANGER.

deborahs current word : power!!

went back with sam, shannon

ate lunch at magic wok

i always thought it was magic walk

anyway today super slack woohoo

relief teacher VERY CUTE

WAH I TELL YOU

SO DAMN DAMN DAMN DAMN CUUUUUUUUUUUTE

face cute cute de,

like bogeh bogeh,

got one tooth abit come out,

speak very short tongue like that

then his joke all damn lame like

" dont shout or else the building will collapse"

AHAHAHAHA WTF.

you take me,

you bind me,

you break the facade

happy 2nd

2009-09-02T18:17:00.004+08:00

my. asshole. brother. is. being. an. ASSHOLE.

WHAT THE HELL LAH.

in the bus

him: where are you

me: bus

reach home

him: why so late

me: school

him: that doesnt answer my question

me: i had school until 530

him: thats better

5 minutes later

him: first thing come home play computer?

me: yes.

WHAT THE HELL IS HIS FZXCKING PROBLEM?????

anyway today was in school until 530,

listening to some chinese speaking competition.

BORING BORING BORING.

the free lunch tasted like SHIT.

curry, veg, rice.

HORRIBLE. YUCK.

but i ate it anyway,

cant be spoilt

yupyup ;D

wow everyone tagging themselves in the camp photos,

lag my facebook!!

but i guess no one is as free as me,

to upload 260+ photos of camp!

ahhhh campcampcamp

always acting like you're better than us,

like your life rocks and our life sucks.

you're such a stuck up sh#t,

trying to act cool,

doing something that doesnt fit you

you had changed for the better,

now you've changed for the worse.

you show off your grades,

your money,

your clothes,

your shoes.

you can think that we're jealous,

but we're not.

its just a piss off how you like to rub it in.

"people who dont travel around much wouldnt know"

2009-09-01T21:03:00.002+08:00

waha just to make this the 555th post xD

i rinsed my mouth with some powerful thingy

that tastes like listerine

to increase the rate of healing on my ulcers,

AND IT TASTES LIKE WTSHIT.

was totally x.x

wanted to dieeeeeeeeeee
gee-gee-gee-gee

baby-baby-baby

bought a carebaear for miss ann,

focusing on the jazz piece for grade seven exam next aug!

sighs sian D:

it was so slack until now,

now i need start stressing again

walaooooooo

haha

was complaining to mum about lit cher

i should learn to shut it

i was talking too myselfy with her

tch.

2009-09-01T14:58:00.003+08:00

haha today was totally wasted

but the weather was damn good XD

ate kfc for lunch <3

popcorn chicken and 2 pieces of chicken.

wah but the ulcers super pain =[

later got piano lesson

haha no present leh D:

i totally forgot to buy!!

yesterday tuition teacher bad mood @@

haha natalie, wu shi hui (?) and the other guy stanley(?)

were behind talking and talking

haha natalie really is friendly

but he's still the only guy that talks to girls

hahaha

then i was like saying " gg"

then he ask " you know whats gg anot"

i say "yah"

he say " gan ga"

i was like " wtf"

LOL.

i lost the supreme doll ytd =[

i should make another one just to stab when im pissed

HAHAHAHAHA.

im going to practice piano at 330

meeting mum at bedok at 530

i hope the pics can be uploaded

but then probably at the end they will say " uploading failed"

out of 300+ only 17 uploaded

i mean i manually uploaded that.

its very little but still very hard okay!!

meixin went out,

im bored out of my wits hahahaha

addicted to the song GEE and battlefield

actually its just im letting them repeat themselves

cos i lazy keep changing song

sick of all other songs

and soon i will be sick of these 2 songs also haha

sighs

im getting lonely in kindy i mean

i love the small little children,

but got no other teens

i mean there are 2 but they're sisters and they're..

mild?

they're nice but they dont really high

poor me HAHAHAHA

oooo

i want a camera D:

mum and dad wont give me

cos they say " you got a handphone"

HANDPHONE IS HANDPHONE CAMERA IS CAMERA

WTSHIT

i want mp3 they say " you got handphone"

THERES A DIFFERENCEK O_O

then i say i want mp3 they say i just following my brother

OH THE PHOTOS CAN UPLOAD HAHAHA

2009-08-31T15:17:00.003+08:00

-edited version, edits are in italics-

deborah's current phrase : power to the people!!

WAH POWER SEH.

today ate at the sushi place with

shannon meixin samantha qiwei jiren

then they all come my house

for like 2 hours.

then kor come home

i thought it was dad

i was like WTF!!

lucky not.

after that damn scared,

keep " why you all havent go home yet"

wah i tell you if its dad i just roll over and die better

less painful.

HAHA.

later got tuition -.-

wa sucks

no voice D:

i have a bed in the entertainment room now woohooo

actually its just that now there's space to put it there xD

ah mah's sick

think i want to bring her go see the doctor =]

yes i know my grandmother cook until dmn nice WAHAHAHA

wah seh the camp pictures so many until can die sia im serious!!

THANKS EMILY FOR THE CUPCAKE LOTS OF LOVE TO YOU

YOUR HOODIE WAS VERY HOT BUT VERY NICE

okay yah then thanks to lim joe min,

it was so dull,

small cuts,

painful cuts,

swell cuts.

LOLOL like mosquito bite like that

somemore i try so many time

in the end hurts like shit

LOLOL. genious man

seriously freaking genious

and today,

tanmeixin and shannonneo

decided to pang seh me without telling me

fzxczxczxcking pissed okay

but,

sighs had to chill

was going out with them later anyway

wanted to just dao them the whole day

but they were sorry and yah.

THEY BETTER NOT DO IT AGAIN O_O

2009-08-28T21:06:00.002+08:00

i should have known
why do i keep putting myself through this
it always happens
yet everytime i do it,
i think that im going to be okay.
i wish i could control these feelings
i wish i could control these thoughts
you s-u-c-k suck.
why cant you be in the same situation i am in
why cant you make me feel okay
why must i always be tormented by these feelings
why cant i ever feel secure
why i be sure about
why must you play this game of charades
why cant you butt out
why cant you leave me alone
why do you do this to me
why do my fingers always type in those words
why do i itch to be posessive
why am i always jealous
fuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfucktheworld

2009-08-28T18:11:00.002+08:00

WHAT IS WRONG WITH FACEBOOK *EMO*

today no pe, good thing.

cos i never bring the pe shorts HAHAHAHA.

today guides itinary suckssssssss.

went to meixin's house with samantha xD

i love her man.

like loads x10000000

at meixins house, i shall describe everything.

we left school and went to tm by mrt.

at kfc, we shared a large popcorn chicken and student meal.

cheese thingy LOL. prata xD

then we take 291 to her house,

missed the bus cos we lazy to run LOL.

then sam was like " wheres the bus D:"
after like 3 minutes of waiting.

i think its 1, she said it was 3 LOLOL.

i sat like unglamly and sam wanted to sit like that too,

i scolded her.

cannot let her walk the path of deb xD

sam took meixins wallet then take 4 dollars away

cos thats the only amount of money she have HAHAHA

elissa owes me 20 bucks btw

at her house the bus stop,

got one dead cockroach.

then samantha suddenly scream "COCKROACH"

i screamed immediately,

then i was like "WHERE WHERE"

then one sec 1/2 boy go stare at us then go up the stairs

then we go climb up the side, cockroach-free!

then walking to her house,

the corridor,

ANOTHER COCKROACH.

WTH IT WAS FLATTENED, LEGS STICKIN OUT.

WAAAAAAAAAAAAH.

okay then at meixins house,

read teens, one teenage, cant open audi *sad*

then we went downstairs, audition!

her mother was like " i watching show leh"

then in the end let her one hour.

but we use for 2 =X

wan zao le but then erzi finally can play with us

then we wan zao again papa wan come play with us

then he was like one game

so we one game

but after the game still stay to quarrel.

he was demoted from papa

to fried rice

to chopstick

to godzilla

to tooth fairy with pink tutu

to flying squirrel

to flying purple scorpion ( he say he scorpio ma)

then upgraded to toilet paper

see i so nice WAHAHA.

samantha was so scared of the ghost that keep walking past the door,

but we keep forgetting to change the map

HAHAHAHAHA.

funny sh#t

(stupid qw got a levels, sprain his leg.

im going to curse his supremeness by hanging the doll upside down xD)

then we play halfway, i say i wan go mamashop.

then make meixin pay for the gummies.

she only agreed to pay for the gummies if we return her the change xD

yea manzxczxczxczc

i keep leaning on meixin HAHAHA.

so soft <3

she's my pillow

then i bit her for rebelling against me ;D

then i bit her again for fun

then go home that time,

sam and i were quarreling quarreling quarreling

SO FUNNY.

hearts to sam!!

the music exam was WHOOHOO!

good job everyone!

good job birdy who came to my house just to practice!

good job sarah who didnt need any practice!

good job to the singers for the good volume!

good job good job good job!

gosh.

im so sorry!!

i played wrong =[

the beat supposed to be fast

like 8 quavers, i only play 4 crotchets

SORRY AH!

sorry sorry sorry sorry

hmm i realized my blog alot of silent readers.

and joemin was like

"silent readers means that you read you dont make sound"

shannon was like "wtf"

LOL.

see shannon now got you inside

SO INTERESTING RIGHT.

but you will always be there

in my skin.

OBVIOUSLY I MEAN MY BLOGSKIN

'DONT THINK SICK TYVM. =P

monday dress all black whoohoo

must remind emily to go dig up the jacket

look superkewl

LOLOL.

kewl.

iiee eehhmm shuuperr keewll

AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

gay fag

2009-08-27T16:41:00.003+08:00

wa-ha-ha-ha

failing makes me high.

so bored nowadays,

today did absolutely nothing D:

went back home by myself,

emily was damn pissed at our class haha.

i know without her telling me.

ah well~

everything's screwing up on me xD

ouch lah chewy go claw my foot.

rawrs

my new catchphrase: GG KENNA OWN

2009-08-26T16:50:00.003+08:00

gah i dont know whats wrong with the bloddy border.

heck it. my personal design wheee.

haha today was so funnehhhhhh

ate lunch with shann and mx and birdy

birdy's now at my house learning the guitar.

LOL. so funny xD

going out on monday,

who's going to be my twin?

haha joemin FINALLY came back to school today.

MISSED HER DAMN ALOT ALOT.

saw lance today o_o

act cool

i think he was in the corner trying to shuffle LOL.

and do the wave.

ive seen good waves, that wasnt one LOL.

or maybe he was too far away xD

the metal blade makes me high

2009-08-23T13:42:00.003+08:00

WHAT THE HELL.

SCARY OKAY YTD.

after smash, was like 11+

then kor took bus 17 back with me.

Then is double decker,

so super empty.

then like 4th row from the back got 3 ah beng

then kor make us sit at the last row of 2 seaters.

then one of them right,

started like texting his friend.

like type on his phone pass to him

Then he keep looking behind.

then i was like " its my imagination lalala"

then i plug in my earphones

then i close my eyes try to sleep lah.

then when i open,

that guy was behind his 2 friends

then they 2 friends go turn around,

then laugh.

WALAO EH.

i was like " please dont come "

LOLOLOL.

maybe they think my hair too funny

or see my brother kp. =D

scary okay!! i think they're like 19?

2009-08-22T14:34:00.002+08:00

i love the electric guitar!! xD

was learning it from kor today,

so damn cool man!

not used to being so free on saturday,

its BORING.

gah geh gooh.

tying my hair is becoming such a tiresome task lately.

it wont stay D:

woohoo.

playing fall for you on teachers day.

im gonna play the electric if i feel like it.

but abit sian must bring the electric to school

and it sounds weird w/o the amp.

no way im bring the amp to school!

i wonder how a field trip to my house would sound.

but i have a dog.

woof woof and all that.

gosh. no one's online lately.

maybe i've been blocked by everyone ha ha

life sucks

what is it about you

that makes my blood boil

that makes me not even bother hiding it

and you

just butt out of my life

i know that if you do

then i can finally forget you

2009-08-21T20:39:00.002+08:00

ooooo today guides was RETARDED.
jiawen rocks my socks man AHAHAHAHA.
today slack like madzxczxczcx.
recess bought notebook ;D
managed to persuade elissa XD
im awesome yuppp
im also non-threatening.
lalalalalala
today everybody so emooooooo
love you all man! XD
life is so boring,
no spunk.
im so glad im in a girl school.
too much action = no good
too little action =boring
i must learn to like juniors!!!
there are nice ones so i cant be prejudice.
lalalalalalalala

2009-08-20T21:03:00.002+08:00

whoo today was....

A GIRLS DAY OUT. LOL.

so many misconceptions,

so many things to do.

who knew secondary school life could be so thrilling.

who knew i'd learn so many new skills.

you can do whatever you want,

but we all know what you're doing.

you can try to be the innocent one,

but we all know your true colours.

oh dearie dearie its time to hide

cos we're all coming

2009-08-19T17:21:00.003+08:00

TODAY WAS SHITASS FUNNY!!!!

after school went for this guides thing which was BORING!!

at first.

diona was being SUPER DUMB.

batul was being AS DUMB AS DIONA.

okay maybe worse.

AHAHAHA

im too damn lazy to elaborate,

but i laughed TOO HARD.

lalala

why must these things come hand in hand

not strong enough to take what comes along

i wish i were stronger but wishes dont come true

by the end of this year i hope i stop loving you

too long too late

who was i to make you wait

now you're gone

you're gone

and im moving on without you

happy 17th

2009-08-17T15:11:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAD I LOVE YOU <3

today went by so fast!!

later going to celebrate dad's birthday!

he's probably never going to see this but this post is dedicated to him :D

Dear Dad,

You're always there when im in trouble,

you're like one big awesome friend.

you never downplay anything when you think its bad for me,

you keep me from straying from my path.

i know i can always count on you,

and that when you're with me i have nothing to fear.

you're the best gift god has given to me.

kids dont get a choice when it comes to parents,

but im so glad that you're mine.

anybody can be a father,

it takes someone special to be a daddy.

happy 44th birthday i love you!

2009-08-14T19:01:00.002+08:00

today ran 2.4 with emily.

almost passed! never mind!

completing it is the first step.

went for guides WHOOHOO.

( rofl got the whoohoo disease from ummirah and insyirah )

gossip with birdy during guides,

gossip with ummirah after guides

Dont wanna fly if you're still on the ground

I wonder if typing centre format is cooooool. xD

wow so boredddddd

ummirah my good friend seh!!

jiawen was so spastic today

" im a small and pretty girl"

AHAHAHAHA. stupid jiawen xD

you drive me crazy half the time

Gosh.

cant meet up with you on 17

same thing with valentines day

maybe its just not meant to be

im fighting fate just talking to you

the other half im only trying to let you know

today some radio people came our school

but like no diff can?

never see them at all LOL.

i pity you who are so well decieved

2009-08-12T15:13:00.005+08:00

WAITED FOR AN HOUR YTD AND IN THE END CANT UPLOAD.

Deborahs' current word : ASSHOLE.

i decided that i shall make a record of all the words i get addicted to. :D

cos mr Zahari was like " S. O"

and i said it sounded like asshole, and i like that word xD

oooo i saw mr cute boy on the bus.

i THINK its mr cute boy,

cos i dont remember what he actually looks like ;D

but he's cute either wayyyy

meixin the genious threw the letter out the window.

GEY KIANG!! XD

so damn beautiful

today me emily and emylia were cam whoring

but walao all so unglam =.=

and emily took one DAMN unglam photo of me.

i was talking, and you know its then that your face gets distorted ._.''

i borrowed sarah's pe shirt cos i forgot today got pe.

then i wearing FBTs.

then it was like covering the FBT o_o

from the back like i not wearing shorts lah wthhhhhhhh

anita was damn nice.

she go say : SO GAY

when the instructor was right there.

okay both were gay but erm..

OKAY!!

like the clouds you drift me away

during english we took pics with our hp when mr zahari went ouside.

like he go outside to tell ppl their marks

then he heard us say ' take pictureeee"

then he go open the window =.=

kaopehhhhh

thanks to lee cher lyn ( FUCR.)

i decided R looks like k,

and then it also can stand for fucker

so its my new word.

its copyrighted.

everytime you write/say it,

you owe me 50 cents.

-edited-

anyway thanks to her we had to stand

COS MR ZAHARI FORGOT!!
rawr cher lyn you owe me lunch.

or 10 dollars.

your choice okay? xD

or i'll haunt you for the rest of you life giving you my innocent stare,

stealing all your water then knocking the bottle to the floor.

just like old times right LAOGONG.

AHAHAHAHA.

oh and im sams new laywer.

her divorced lg cher lyn go touch her leg.

XD money money come to me

not like a hooker but more like a princess

i feel like playing audition,

but also so so so so lazy.

got tuition with the stupid brother of mine URGH.

tmr also.

then friday got guides.

WALAOEH.

monday tuition

tuesday piano

wednesday tuition

thursday tuition

friday guides

saturday church

sunday church

my most slack day is pr0bably saturday

but then slack also so boring so forget it ;D

2009-08-11T17:13:00.002+08:00

got the pics from sam when i came home.

uploading to facebook now.

yes qw your wish is fufilled,

buy me my lolly.

i bought a new pencil case with birdy,

we shit around ;D

we were both choking in KFC.

walao i sweat like nobody's buisness okay

so unglam. BLEAH.

then she walk me to the bus stop <3

LOL. my boyfriend birdy.

The one who likes to make lemon tea come out of sad places.

got piano soon,

screw the teacher at the desk.

her name is May.

screw may.

a screw may fall off.

oh yay halfway done in 19 minutes =/

1500 photos,

i only chose the glam ones.

MY glam ones.

everyone else unglam idc AHAHAHA. xD

wow emily and i were so damn nice today.

during math we were like saying in our class who pretty

and of course, we skipped those that were...

COS WE'RE NICE!! XD

we decided that the whole malay clique not bad.

;D see girls? prettayeeeee

nice ol ummirah decided to pang seh me today.

O_O

im supposed to tag parvin but i lazy AHAHAHA =X

she's probably reading this and planning to kill me in science.

" hmm which pencil shall i stab deborah with today"

oh em gee.

taking so long.

ok. then,

apparantly my cell leader still wants to meet me =/

i say " let jasmine come along"

she say cannot ._.

quote " not this timeeeeee"

then she say next time.

WAKAO GOT A NEXT TIME AH.

I GO SENTOSA NOT FREE AH.

oh speaking of which i think im supposed to meet aunty angela soon.

bleah.

dont want meet her =/

adults think they know so much.

and adults think teens think they know so much.

sighsssss.

Today chinese,

huang lao shi go say " if ting xie is tmr must pass okay!"

then he go ask mx shannon then he ask me.

then i go smile and him and say " AH"

then shannon and mx go laugh at me.

cos they say i look innocent.

then huang lao shi suspicious LOL wtf.

Sat beside anita during geog,

bullshitted all day LOL.

emily and i kenna punished by mr Zahari~

cos we were talking

then there was the sign on the board that said

" whoever is the next to open the mouth will stand for a week"

me and emily kenna cos we were discussing how kill PCH.

then we were given the option.

stand for one week during english,

or kenna book.

so we chose stand lah OBVIOUSLY.

you know i kenna book 2x liaozxczxczxc

the second thing i think is they book wrong lor.

so mr zahari checking it out for me.

LOL.

today the booking slips kenna pass down like newsletter like that.

Anita get 3 ( reg number 1 )

Batul get 2 ( reg number 2)

Carine never get ( reg number 3)

Chok Teng Teng get 1 ( reg number 4)

Chong Parvin get 1 ( reg number 5 )

Deborah gets 2 ( reg number 6)

Elissa gets 3 ( reg 7)

so the whole row kenna AHAHAHA. dumb shit.

only carine never get lor =.=

rawrrrrrrr.

oh and the dm never book my wristband O=

im shockededededed.

2009-08-09T17:36:00.006+08:00

WHY EVERYONE LIKE TO SUAN ME T.T

i say i can play the G chord on guitar i kenna suan

i act as noah also kenna suan

i eat pizza also kenna suan

i do ntohing also kenna suan

WHAT I DO TO YOU ALL SIA!!

i will get my revenge

Glen

Wei Ren

Matthew

Zhi Wei

Jasmine

MeiXin

Birdy

Elissa

Shannon

Sarah

Dorcas

RAWR.

anyway,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!!

woots man

today got ba kut teh for dinner ( quite normal actually)

but just ate ytd

oh but i didnt eat it.

OKAY CONFUSING :D

woots tmr is holiday~

going to visit queenstown ahmah ;D

janet uploaded some very unglam pictures LOL.

i untagged in one.

im surprised she remembered to tag me O=

ah well~

i wan get more photos from uncle dic

i cant help hating juniors.

dont blame me, i tried.
but my so called favourite junior

is starting to piss me off

2009-08-08T20:51:00.002+08:00

today had WNI with the sec 2 boys

then ate PIZZA HUT.

i suanned everyone LOL.

stupid matthew=.=

he owes me $1000 and his life.

rawr.

dorcas kenna suan by meee

then she try escape she band into this pole ouch.

LOL :D

zhiwei insists i still owe him a meal.

i thought it was bubble tea.

WHY DID IT CHANGE TO A MEAL.

its more expensive D:

2009-08-07T18:57:00.003+08:00

ooooh today quite cool eh :D
go school, all wear red.
looks more like chinese new year than national day LOL
thats what elissa said,
and i agree :D
after that went out with qiwei, elissa, meixin, shannon
tk came later and smag couldnt come =[
saw erzi and we realized we never jio him x.x
we took long never chat le forget to jio him ><
UP <3
walao damn sad okay
i teared and then when i wipe away that time,
shannon laugh at me
WALAO IT WAS DAMN SAD OKAY
he with his wife so happy then she died
she died just when he bought her the tickets,
want to surprise her
then she die T.T
SOMEMORE THE OLD MAN SO CUTE.
i was also really really sad when the mail box kenna hit off.
then he look so sad and "MY HOUSE!!"-ish
feel like crying mannnn
then his regret-filled eyes as he ran into the house
his worried look as he sat outside waiting to be sued
his im-going-to-burst-into-tears face when he was told to go retirement home.
BUT IN THE END IS HAPPY!!
YAAAAAAAAY.
seriously man i cry too easily x.x

walao kenna suan like non stop by tk and qw
GOOD LOR THEY.
one minute say i small
one minute say i big
too small to see,
too big keep blocking the way.
!@#$%^&*

in the end went home at 5+
now at my aunts house.
haha

its not the same

2009-08-05T15:08:00.002+08:00

OH MY GOSH LOL.

took mrt with birdy then she alighted at kembangan

at tanah merah i was alone lah

then got this whole group of boys wearing white uni ( idk what school )

then they upper sec de

then i try to sleep la

then in the end i sleep for one station ' SLEEP'

then they alighted at tampines

then one of them go turn around and smile and wave to me LOLOL.

he shuai leh! XD

cute-shuai

NICE HAIR ALSO AHAHAHA.

look like sec 3

but he got the innocent cute cute shuai shuai face AHAHA <3

then i stun tio i smile at him in return

then he walk out of mrt with his friends pass by the window look at me

but i purposely stare out the door LOL.

oooooooooooooooooo :D

shuai <3

cute <3

nice hair <33333

oh and ummirah says im nice to hug

elissa also. LOL.

randommmmzxczxczxczxczxc

maybe cos we all around the same height xD

2009-08-03T17:25:00.003+08:00

TODAYS ORAL SUCKED.

TODAYS MATH RESULT SUCKED.

TODAY SUCKED.

except for the fact that i talked to you.

its okay that you dont remember.

its fine that i alone remember 17.08.07

just dont leave me and stay by my side.

2009-08-03T08:03:00.005+08:00

yesterday was so damn GAY
my aunty was drunk AHAHA
more like tipsy though
took alot of pictures,
but all not in my camera
must ask my uncle send to me
not that i really want it ._.
the games were FUNNNY.
poor linh, so shy.
we keep taking photos like
" normal one normal one!"
then
" now funny one funny one!"
the funny one is all the peace sign LOL.
then the YAMSENG make jayden cry
so we shout, he cry = we imba!!!
shout and scream,
my cousins were high, so was i
OMG ANOTHER RHYME IM SICK OF IT.

you make it impossible to forget you

i miss those times we spent together

i've never been able to forget you

cant get you outta my mind

i've never stopped loving you

please dont say goodbye

2009-08-02T16:08:00.002+08:00

apparantly i have sadistic friends.
meixin smses me to rub it in that i have to wear a dress today.
qiwei is asking me to take pictures.
later i gonna wear liao
in the morning wear skirt.
at first i wear jeans then i kenna scolded o_o
GOSH. i was wondering why i was suddenly so sad yesterday.
the answer came out today.
apparantly it was THAT time again AHAHAHA.
sorry for pissing you off qiwei LOLOL.
linh is so cuuuuuuute.
she's a wonderful bride. so pretty!!
nothing much t0 blog about but,
i LOVE GUITAR HEROSSSSS.
yesterday guides S-U-C-K-E-D.
march wrong and everything
DAMN MALU.
batul never march,
then the tkss boys were like go go
then she still blur blur
then they say MARCH!!!!!!
then she go -.-
walao ehhhhhh
sighs dc lah. =/
walao everyone daoing my sms okay
saiful and smag both.
aiyah fine i'll just ignore both of them forever =D
one kick and they're out of my life.
the bus ride back with ummirah was... interesting AHAHA.

my mind tells me to forget

but my heart says no

2009-07-31T19:58:00.005+08:00

today got guides.

slack for like 2 hours then 1 hour drills thingy

ahhh today was boring

had napfa 5 stations retest

so BU FU QI.

BFQBFQBFQBFQBFQ.

went home peak hour.

im so BROKE. D:

cant wait for sunday.

get the dress day over and done with HAH.

just now chewy growl at the guy

who looked suspicious and was actually just selling ice cream

( i think )

he growl then bark ahahaha so cute :D

ily chewy~

cheer up joemin <3

ily kay?

sometimes i cant hold back the tears

i weep for the me thats lost all hope

a front too strong i cant keep up

but you will never know

2009-07-30T17:18:00.003+08:00

lol at my facebook.

100 other requests

miss chiam chiam chiam and mdm surayaaaah never come today

not that there was much diff cos today no science LOL.

hmmmmm

today got assembly

walao the dm go say

" idk why girls like to cover their face with the hair idk what to call it, bangs?

but it makes you look so sleepy"

walao since when you so close to juliet and belle de.

not happy when we around,

only happy with them

suddenly coming close to them

then start to heck us.

yes we know you only need us cos no one else's there

whatever whatever idc

ooh it rhymes ^^

i dont miss you

2009-07-29T17:29:00.003+08:00

today felt sad

then happy

then worried

then tired

then breathless

then nauseatic

then sad

then depressed

then annoyed

then ticked off

then happy again

then hungry

then full.

today was... interesting

2009-07-28T22:13:00.005+08:00

KAO

everyone want to meet me

give me some intellectual talk

last time is xiang and robyn

now is shu han ._.

kp mannnnn.

say wan do that with everyone in the end always will stop at me de

last time ended with jasmine who COINCIDENTALLY is my good friend.

wakao i so bad meh =/

maybe they see i vulgar or something?

always interview me,

tell me not to use this language,

use that language.

dont use this word,

dont talk like this,

BLAHBLAHBLAH

probably trying to find out why i dont fit into the cell.

ARGH BLOODY SUCKS

i special seh meet with all 3 cell leaders for PRIVATE TALK

"i meeting others also lah"

yea its just a damn coincidence it starts with me all the time.

its also another coincidence it ends with me too.

sure gurantee they ask

" how's school"

" what kind of friends you hang out with"

" how's exams"

" do you do quiet time"

walao my life they huan lo so much for what =/

FK LAH.

maybe if i like jasmine like that stop going,

they stop interrogation sessions.

AHH. i got problem they wan know for what

kaypoh only not like they can do anything.

good intentions i know but

why always ME?

i know i talk like want fight lah but WHAT THE HELL can?

always i kenna one.

maybe i should just stfu dont talk anymore lah.

cant they just bloody leave me alone

i miss you

i wish you didnt exist.

2009-07-27T15:40:00.002+08:00

i bought my dress le L-O-L
$85 altogetherrrrrr
not wearing my belt though.
wasteddddddddddddd.
oh well :D
dad's letting me download msn on his lappy yaaaaaaaaaay
today's exam was coooool.
bth tmr one though =/
but must have confidence!!
today the exam not bad HAHA.
im excited for the wedding.
not looking forward to having to wear that dress though
its nice but just not on me.
i look like im cross dressing ._.
life is sad D:
cant wait to bring meixin go buy dress.
lets see whats my taste in dresses xD

2009-07-25T20:07:00.002+08:00

every time i think about you
or see your face in the pictures that slip out
every memory i have thats just you and me
hurts me so much i wish i could die

2009-07-25T19:15:00.000+08:00

today went shopping with mum.

bought 2 shirts from milk <3

then went for lunchhhhhh

SO DELICIOUS.

but argh gonna gain weight tmr.

felt nauseous today D:

feel like puking.

arghhhhhhhhhhhh

went to cut my hair,

tomorrow's the big day.

*nervous*

2009-07-24T20:23:00.002+08:00

todayyyyyy gotttttttt nappppfaaaaaa
but i couldnt go D:
what the !@#$%^&*
had to go guides.
MALU SHIT MAN.
went there,
march wrong,
swing wrong,
fall in wrong etc etc
the stupid either cheung cheng or tk guys go laugh at us ==
walaoooooo so damn malu okay!!
went back,
saw joses on the bus
then we took 17 and chat all the way.
HE KEEP SUANNING ME O_O
yup okay nothing to say,
oh yah meixin and joemin taking napfa with me =3
i hope i dont fail,
cos if i do,
there's not retest for a retest.
that'd be a retesttest.
reretest?
either one. LOL.

sian CA week coming D:

2009-07-21T20:46:00.001+08:00

URGH NAUSEA.

today got 5/7 for history.

spent 15 bucks today =[

i shall declare tuesday to be candy day.

since i ate candy and chocolate and lunch today

nothing to say byebyeeee

oh yah i bought friendship bands. cheers :D

2009-07-20T16:21:00.002+08:00

today was so funnnnnn.

during legacy must have this skit,

supposed to be damn funny

but jia wen dont want be james bond.

at first she want one lor!

then she dun wan D:

now im hooooome.

fell asleep on bus 10 HAHA.

i know how to cook pork chop!!!

marinate the meat with 1 spoon of oyster sauce,

1 spoon of soya sauce,

1 dash of pepper.

throw the meat in flour,

fry it,

take it out,

put 2 spoon of tomato into the pan,

1 and a half spoon of sugar,

stir it.

AND YOU HAVE MY FAVOURITE PORK CHOP.

but i wan learn how make my favourite chicken.

chicken chicken chicken =3

2009-07-18T08:15:00.004+08:00

hmmm now that i think about it,

it really was an interesting experience going to his house.

i will forever TREASURE that memory.

yup.

JIAYOU MUMMY!

have fun staying in that house =3

walao qiwei come my house like king like that

play with my donkeyyy

play with my dog

play with my massage chair

play with my pillow

LOL.

so interesting

i left out the part i keep vibrating his seat

put to max vibration until he run away =3

actually i wasnt pissed

i just really wanted to rant and rant and rant

and i get so caught up that i rant more and more and more

but im never angry =3

im such a peaceful person.

walaoooooooooo

qiwei never reply my sms lor

i so good pei him sms T.T

i just realized qw live the house all girls.

like smag like that

but qw one worse cos all nag him AHAHAHA.

poor qw

i think the top 3 things he look for in a wife

1. chiobu

2. cannot nag him

3. cook good food

in whatever order he can arrange it

HAHAHAHA.

im never going to stop rubbing the fact he got a naggy mum in his face tho.

HAHA.

i kept going " your mother =.="

LOOOOOOOOOOL.

life is fun when you can bully qiwei~

2009-07-17T17:33:00.003+08:00

WHAAAAAT.THE. HEEEEEEEEEEEELL.

today go qiwei house so go with jiawen.

we had so much fun xD

ate lunch then went to qiwei's house.

lucky never ta pao there cos awaiting us there was...

QI WEI'S FORMIDABLE MOTHER OF A THOUSAND QUESTIONS.

EVERY SINGLE QUESTION ALSO MUST ASK.

ASK UNTIL QIWEI HIMSELF GO HIDE IN THE ROOM.

WHAT SCHOOL YOU FROM

WHERE YOU STAY

HOW YOU COME HERE

HOW OLD ARE YOU

WHATS YOUR NAME

WHERE YOU STAY

EAT LE MA

HOW YOU KNOW HIM

YOU KNOW SEBASTIAN

YOU KNOW XUE QI

WHY YOU GOT SAME BAG AS HER

ARE YOU CLASSMATES

DO YOU PLAY AUDITION

WHY YOU SO MUCH DIFFERENT FROM HIS SISTER

BLAH BLAH BLAH.

WHAT WAS THAT???

MIGHT AS WELL ASK

WHAT COLOUR IS YOUR UNDERWEAR

WHY ISNT YOUR UNIFORM PINK

HOW MANY MINUTES IT TAKE YOU TO WALK HERE

HOW GREEN IS YOUR PINAFORE? DARK GREEN? LIGHT GREEN?

HOW MANY TREES YOU WALK PAST TO GET HERE

DID YOU STEP ON ANY GRASS

WHY DO YOU HAVE FINGERNAILS

HOW MANY SIDES TO A CIRCLE

WHY YOU HAVE HAIR

WHY IS TKGS A GIRL SCHOOL

WHO MADE THIS HOUSE

HOW MANY CM IS YOUR PENCIL CASE

RIGHT????????????????

THEN

grandmother BEST ah!

deborah : ( oh so innocently says ) qiwei's old isnt he =D

grandmother: ( evily and naggyily ) he old his problem what whats it got to do with you? you ask his mother lah why she give birth to him so early people old not your problem you care so much for what

deborah: ( scared) erm its just our inside joke..

grandmother :( smiles)

deborah: (walks away)

then meixin dont understand a word of hokkien, think im having fun talking to her.

i was so stressed after being in his house for so long.

i decided i stayed there 5 minutes too long.
and i was only there for 5 minutes.

so i left.

qiwei came along after his mother nagged him.

YOU EAT LE MA?

WHY NEVER EAT?

GO EAT LAH?

GO EAT WITH THEM?

WHY DONT WANT EAT?

NO MONEY ISIT?

he was going to come along anyway.

his house is so stressful.

they came to my house later to play with chewy.

then he sit on the massage chair.

hug eeyore and my pillows.

my cousins maid came over to learn cooking from ah mah.

so when the food was done i fed it to tmx and lqw

walao fun hor?

sleep there open mouth food come to you.

i should have missed. =.=

hit his nose/eyes/ears/shirt

they left at 5.15

10 minutes before my brother came home.

*phew*

i tell you i dont know how qiwei can stand living in his house.

i'd die of stress if i was him.

he say his sister also nag him.

LOL. good luck man.

you're welcome to my house every friday before 5pm =D

we should go meixin's house xD

then i dont have to worry about being caught with qiwei in my house.

meixin at least not so bad xD

blame qiwei for being a boy.

but he's a mother. HMMMM.

i think the only one who never go my house before thats close is...

tk?

seb?

kw?

just depends how long they stay =p

qiwei got alot of my rants on the bus.

i was complaining about his mum and ah mah.

seriously man.

but im done :D

2009-07-16T17:40:00.004+08:00

this long long super long message goes to joemin.

HI!

end. :D

well if she even comes that is. rofl.

today was action packed!

and maaaaaaaaaaths.

got back the papers and some were crying some were happy

most were like me.

whacking their heads with their books cos of fu.. bad careless mistakes.

6.5 marks to carelessness. * sad*

but IM ALREADY DAMN HAPPY.

aww man science test tomorrow.

will there never be a happy day for me? D;

oh well. once i grow old like qiwei, i'll be old and evil.

like thats any consolation. LOL!

i dont want to wear a dress o_o

sighs. life.

today was a surprise yes but no matter what,

we'll always be friends.
i want to be there for you to multilate when you need blood.
cos babe i rather i be hurt than you.
please swear you wont do that again.
i'll buy you a stress toy
the one you squeeze then the eye pop out de.
thats what friends are for and if i cant do this for you,
i might as well not be there.
so dont feel bad for today,
instead smile as you know that we care.
but if you ever feel like crying,
dont hide behind your smile and just let it out.
cos no matter what happens we'll always love you.
you're one sexy hotass princess ♥

2009-07-15T19:43:00.003+08:00

todaaaaay.

im gonna fail hiiiiiiiissssssstttttttttoooooorrrrrryyyyyy.

oh and my frog is green :D

i bought plasterssssssss.

i want the winine the pooh one but its too ex *sad*

my record of 7 years no dress wearing is SMASHED.

sighs..

anyway i dont like last minute things.

sheral say she wan go buy dress with me.

but then she also never say when and everything.

i'd go myself but i know i'll just end up buying crap or buying nothing at all.

met aunty angela just now.

qiwei make me miss the bus so i make him entertain me WAHA.

walaoooo cant wait go his house on friday

then can intro him to his female self SIEW JIA WEN.

male version thinks he's supreme and king of the world

female version thinks she's a dragon and her mortal enemy is the evil tooth fairy.

see what spastic friends i have?

PE was damn fun.

partner sarah first then we were like RAWR.

then partner shannon first part i win =3

second part she win.

walao forgot to bring pe shorts =/

im going to forget

2009-07-14T16:41:00.006+08:00

today ate lunch with meixin and shannon and samantha.

meixin keep getting demoted and promoted

so did shannon LOL.

sam pei me home after that =D

suddenly i so close to sam LOL.

cos we keep singing in class ;D

samanta was complaining in the mrt about her feet

so i spam sms people what size their feet are.

seb first to reply

then qiwei

then smag. but his reply was " my feet one feet big lah!"

addicted to the song "i'd lie"

but i only know the chorus so everyone in my class is like CHANGE SONG!

" and i could tell you

his favourite colours green"

ahahahaha.

today i go school never bring rubber band.

never bring hair band.

never bring clip.

LOL. xD

the song i'd lie is TOO NICE.

if you asked me if i loved himi'd lie

maybe i havent gotten over you.i want to forget.
those things i remember.
the first meeting.the first touch.the first hint.the first moment.
how i felt when i knew you felt that way too.
but those dates and everything that happened.
probably mean nothing at all to you

2009-07-13T16:14:00.002+08:00

oooh. today sex educationnn. LOLLL!

dumb ass questions like

what is dating?

whom do you date?

why do you date?

what do you do on a date?

when does dating become unsafe?

what do you do when it becomes unsafe?

we were like " we date mama shop uncle's son. why? cos fre food ma"

then " we eat sleep drink watch movie on a date"

" dating becomes unsafe when yout touch here touch there"

" when on a date you touch touch kiss kiss hug hug "

then the counsellor was like telling us not to go so secluded areas with a guy blah.

say what it will make the boy think you wan go a step closer.

then say what the boy become excited when he see skin or something.

then tell us the things WE ALREADY KNOW.

HAH. sex education waste time nias

i was drawing a SUPREME EVIL SPAWNS page on my handbook.

its not coloured yet but when it is i'll scan it into this com ;D

if im bothered to colour it in the first place.

it IS the dumb supreme's page afterall.

maybe i should burn it =D

2009-07-11T20:55:00.001+08:00

im sorry.

if only i studied harder,

i'd have gotten that question correct and given us a chance.

or if i'd have gone up and gotten that wrong question correct,

we'd have tied and everything would have been okay.

im sorry i didnt work harder even when i knew how much it meant to you guys.

i know you guys wont read this,

but im sorry.

maybe next sword exchange i just wont go =/

2009-07-10T16:55:00.002+08:00

today went out with meixin qiwei elissa and jiren :D
jiren like very out leh D:
he so quiet =[
they came to my house to play with chewy then they went crazy LOL.

qiwei and elissa said hi to my grandma.
during lunch qiwei was SO flattering man.
" then why you still like that"
wah nice. =.=
basically, its not cos i eat alot.
i just like to eat chips. geddit? LOL.

wah then so nice i got allergic to my rabbit -.-
so i pin up my fringe and stuff.
unglam. but whatever. HEH.

oh yah then i was singing the ' you belong with me' song.
then i went out of tune HAHAHAHA.
then i was like EH!
then qiwei was like ' okay lets run now'

elissa keep going on qiweis side D:
BADBAD GIRL.

ok nothing to say le :D

2009-07-09T15:49:00.003+08:00

i feel like eating LOL.
i want private my blog D:
but not everyone who reads my blog has a blogging account D:
listening to MTV right now haha.
im hungryyyy.
LOL 'i do not hook up' mv very weird LOOOOOL.
its rainingggggg.
batul wan me and birdy go her house which is like where??
red line leh 0_0
sjb sia!
im addicted to facebook hahahahaha.
i went to tag the supreme and papa in my photos.
is all drawings de LOLL.
my handbook is now turning from a diary to a picture book and now a sketch book.
today's thursday right
hopefully can go out on friday.
i miss my friends =]

i want to love someone simple like you

2009-07-08T15:44:00.002+08:00

today dnt and math test.
i know both got wrong de D:
i hope i pass math D:
zhiwei teach me until so xin ku then if i fail its so..
BAD.
art hand in tmr,
mine looks like crap but argh whatever. :D
i cant get blamed cos my whole group doesnt blame people.
HAHAHAHA.

im talking to myself D:
my brother must think im crazy.
argh really dont like typing on a laptop keep typing wrong.
i remember i used to type with 2 fingers then now i use like 4 of them.
except thumb :D
my mum used to say ' if you want to use computer must type with all fingers'
i think i got my voice back.
cos now when i sing it doesnt sound that off ;D
friday wan go out siaaaaa
but really no voice HAHHA.
during the end of year holidays i WILL go kbox. :DDD
i will go with
qiwei sebastian meixin joemin elissa smag tk kaiwei fann jean jessica
the girls will overpower boys :D
i want go with chris and teng also but they sure cant de lor
going to do art again later at 430 :D
i hate lappy erase my sentence 3 times D:
this was the sentence
' i bought 4 notebooks today cos im so STUDIOUS'
finally i typed it out :D
i know what mx or mummy's gonna say.
' you cant type it cos its not true lah see'
but i already predicted it so the answer is of course ...
'i am the almighty deborah and i love pie.'
i wonder who miss chiam was talking about when she said
' i go read blogs ah then right i realized got some girls look so innocent,
but then read their blog they go scold all the vulgarities'
i know is not me cos my mind is so pure and innocent :D
man im hungry.
hungry and broke D:

2009-07-07T21:31:00.002+08:00

HAHA. finally have time to post.
headache and nausea just now.
but now that im not stressed anymore ( and i also ate a panadol),
its gooooooone :D

wah qiwei's so stupid man.
laugh like crap over his stupid notes.

question: how many children to you want and what are they called?
answer : one million children and they're all named after me

STUPID MUMMY. HAHA. dumb guy.

wah my facebook quiz say im emo. IM NOT LOR.
i took the what colour are you quiz i got black.
loner blah blah blah
such a lie!
i took it again got orange. HAPPY PERSON.
see? i knew it ;D

today chinese so slack :D
do one test paper.
sure pass de!
15/30 ;D

got zhiwei to help me with math again HAHAHA.
if i pass the final years math, i owe him a treat.

hanging out with people my age is so much better.
with the exception of 5 people.
qiwei, seb, tk, saiful and caleb
the rest i feel like im annoying them or something.
like im some small kid thats just bugging them when i talk to them.
somehow i always feel that way whenever one senior does that.
gah. im such an I.

today fb me and mx compete against supreme.
the buy your friends one.
he buy me and mx then torture us
so i buy him.
then meixin buy me so i buy her
then he buy her back or buy me back
so we buy buy buy LOL.
my 4 million become 3 million le D:
expensive pet.
in the end kenna bought away by either jean or fann i dont remember LOL.

today recess i mood swing =3
so pissed with shannon until i threw ice cubes in her shirt.
tell her dont do she still go do.
told her i would =p

she forgave me in the end though *phew*
cos my mood swung from anger to happiness. LOL.
i want to swing on a swing D:

i wish you didnt make it so obvious
you hated me.
a small girl still got pride in her.
or whatever's left.

2009-07-07T16:02:00.001+08:00

im doing art right now all by myself.
i hate hot glue guns ARGH.
they're cool but they're so LOL.
okay no time byebye!

2009-07-06T20:19:00.003+08:00

oh finally i can use mozzie.
hmm.
sam probably only talks to those he's close to.
he thought i was deb koh then he was.. not scary. LOL.
okay. im not scared of him anymore.
but he's still...
yea. HAHAHAHA.

my internet explorer now got problem. ARGH.

today i managed to study until the FANTASTIC zhiwei came.
we totally slacked lah.
then his cousin came.
scotts cell mate apparantly.
he said scott was supposed to say " will you be my pikachu"
IM SO GLAD HE DIDNT.
HAHAHAHA.

zhiwei cant take art for o levels.
unless its testing how well you can draw an onion-fish.
HAHAHAHAHAHA.
so funny.
'studied' with josh koh and zhiwei when jasmine left. =[

meixin and joemin came to like interview them.
made weiren who was there for awhile only get interviewed.
then made zhiwei's cousin zhi hao get interviewed then laugh like siao.
jasmine was also forced to =P

333's bubbletea shop got damn nice milk oreo.

hmmm....
okay tuition was slack.
nothing else to say. :D

if only putting you out of my mind was as easy as it sounded

2009-07-05T16:40:00.006+08:00

why mozzie cant blog D:
anyway today go church,
after and during rehearsals slacked again.
we one group telling lame jokes like mad HAHAHA.
me, suyi, minyi, zhiwei, aaron, weiren, varrick, uncle alvin
HAHAHAHA. so dumb.
zhiwei is a superman wannabe,
weiren is a sister complex wannabe (idc it exists ;D)
aaron is also a superman wannabe
except zhiwei higher rank.
his cape bigger than aarons. HAHAHA.
i love using the word wannabe. =3

they see you everyday,

talk to you everyday,

by your side everyday,

but i wanted to be your best.

too proud of myself,

i thought it was true.

now i know that im wrong.

i wish i never loved you.

2009-07-04T21:14:00.002+08:00

HAHA.
today go buddhism seminar.
so fun :D
its so interesting HAHAHAHA.
then go for the 24hour prayer thing,
my mum didnt see the steps, AND SHE FELL.
UNTIL SO JIALAT.
scare me until almost kenna heart attack sia!!
then after that go sermon,
then like in cell,
got this guy called SCOTT.
he go come into our cell room,
then hold this pikachu like you take from those mini cakes.
then he supposed to give it to someone from our cell
then i at the corner,
then he give me. LOL
everyone was like OOOOOOOOOOOOH.
i let them have their revenge =p
i always say them. HAHAHA.
then later slack at HQ wait for kor until 830, in the end go home alone.
lucky got leonard to pei me.
at first got joel and wan xin and hwei yen.
then they all left.
so leonard pei me until 830 then i go liaos.
sneeze like the whole day D:
stupid syness

we belong together

2009-07-02T18:25:00.002+08:00

AHAHAHAHA today geog so funn.
i drew a dragon on jiawen's book she say it look like a flying squirrel.
then i say it was fun sitting beside her,
she say she felt smart sitting next to me.
so i ostracised her by pushing her table away.
then i drew her a picture of her, a chicken and called it jiawen on my textbook.
then she say
hey it looks like a poodle! wait why is it called jiawen
AHAHAHAHAHA. she's so dumb.
took direct bus home with shannon and meixin.

there's nothing here in this heart left to follow

theres nothing here in this soul left to say

2009-07-01T17:45:00.002+08:00

somehow love always escapes me
when i think i finally know what its all about
someone proves me wrong.
the ache i feel when i think about you.
i was the one who ended it all.
yet why do i feel like it was just taking the easy way out.

its no surprise i wont be here tomorrow

i cant believe that i stayed till today

2009-07-01T15:34:00.002+08:00

today went back with samantha, bao yu, meixin, nicole
hahaha so fun man go back with them.
im the chainsaw ;D

still scared of sam. HAHA.
he's so... aloof?
stuck asahel group photos in my handbook ;D
its like my handbook is turning into a picture book LOL.

saw bernice on the way back,
i was with samantha
and she wanted to smap me.
her mixture of smack and slap.
then there was a bee she wanted me to kill
i told her to smap it
then she said she could only smap people,
so i told her to smab it.
LOL

okay now im bored.
=]

2009-06-30T15:41:00.002+08:00

OH FINALLY I CAN POST.

hmm...
where shall i start?

friday i went out with my mum,
ate lunch at a small food fair,
went to bugis,
bought a shirt and a watch.
i was too lazy to shop HAHAHA.
we spent most of our time eating and sleeping.
like i slept in JCO LOL.
my mum said she refused to let me end the day
if i never buy a shirt.
so i bought one just to please her.
oh but its quite nice.
:D baggy. again. HAHAHA.

then i needed to peeeeeee.
i was in the mrt,
some jackass decided to go down to the tracks
at some random station for some random reason
so i got off the mrt,
and instead of waiting for 15 minutes + and reaching home in 40 mins,
we took direct bus and reached home in 1h30min LOLLLL.

on saturday went to guides carnival,
bought éclairs for asahel, MNMS, kor.

thanks to birdy. :D

suddenly vincent and sam disappeared!
so i couldnt give them.
i put the éclairs in the car then i saw vincent.
so i scolded him.
then my brother also scolded him cos i asked him too LOL
i didnt know i would see vincent ma
feel bad =X

hmm okay then sunday,
had rehearsals again.
sighs its the first ever preview and i dont think im good enough =[
what if everything screws up cos of me?
im not a good enough actress =[
its not gonna have an impact if im the one acting..
sucks.

did project today,
stayed back and then left with birdy.

life is really tiring if you spend it being sad right?

sitting beside jia wen and joemin is so FUN.
except we only get to sit beside each other in maths and english.
HAHAHA dumb right?

damn. SHOP is closed.
when i finally decide to go,
ARGH.

so what does it all mean?
every word every action leaving me confused
your tendencies to suffer silently
only make this harder than it needs to be
but would it make a difference if i knew?
not to you perhaps,
but right now,
i dont want to -

2009-06-26T09:37:00.004+08:00

went out yesterday whole day.
ate so much D:
stupid stupid stupid.
went to a board games cafe,
archering,
sushi buffet,
ba kut teh,
transformers 2.

so funn!!
i love the game boom town.
i trasheddd.
got $140+
my mum $99
my dad $30+
my bro $50
cos i just keep taking $7 every time the 2 dice roll the number 9.
then the time they roll 8 then i got 3 8s then plus together is like $12.
i know you dont understand but i wont explain. HAHA.
played 4 different board games for 3 hours.

archery i hurt myself =[
i got a cut.
a hemorrhage.
like can see blood but the skin never tear yet.
i cant hit the yellow all the time
but not bad, without glasses still can aim.
just that i no strength

sushi buffet i eat until so FULL.
milkshake,
6 sushi,
fried chicken,
beef...
alot lah HAHA.

watch transformers from 9.30pm-12am
its so FUNNY.
the fighting is cool.
autobots like OWN them man.
must be cos the skilled destuctobots all died in the first one.
woots the girl star was so hot.
whats her name?
MEGAN FOXX.
wahaha. she's so pretty.
idk how spell her name properly though =3
hmmm...
what else is there to say without spoiling it.
i love that old destructobot convert guy.
what do i mean?
go watch yourself lah!!

today going out again.
from 12+
until all the way at night.

so lazy to blog nowadays. LOL
wonder if its the same as writing a non personal diary.
weathers so hot nowadays =[

today when i go shopping i wanna buy a pair of shorts,
a shirt,
a belt,
a hoodie.
maybe a cap.

thats my goal!! :DDDDDDDD

2009-06-24T11:17:00.002+08:00

hehehe.
going out today =D ...
to do project D=
BOOOOOOOOOOOOO.
somemore is chinese one.
lol maybe i'll at least get one thing done.
i made my knee bleed again yesterday HAHA.
but just one tiny cut.
like a split in the skin.
OUCH OKAY.
little bit of blood,
so much paaaaaaaaain.

roflmao found chewy's weak spot.
his 2nd one.
HAHAHAHA.
so funnnnnneeeehhhh.
urgh neck pains.
how do i sleep 0_0

mum woke up in the middle of the night to cover me with a blanket.
i was subconscious.
she was asking me " are you cold"
i was like "no.."
then she touch my hand and put a blanket on me.
HAHA.
i guess i was cold =p

so chaoji wuji bored.
hahaha its so fun taking quizzes.
like those that ask " are you more guy or more girl"
AHAHA.
sometimes i get guy sometimes i get girl.
more guy then girl though.
heels are SO hard to walk in =[
which idiot would buy them?
well i guess if you had dresses.
or skirts.
HAHA.
damn i realized i only have one pair of jeans.
and recently i dug up a pair of shorts. :D
but then,
its ancient.
blooming ancient.
so i should just go buy more clothes this friday.
going out with my mum.
hopefully theres no guides.
or i have to pon it =[
okay i shall put =]

boredboredbored.
recently theres nothing fun to post.
i shall go facebook stuff until 12 then i go off hahaha
unless i forget =X

2009-06-23T21:11:00.001+08:00

haha.
feeling so bo mood nowadays.
went out with kaiqi, daniel (?) , jiren and meixin.
went bowling,
lunch and shopping. though we didnt buy anything. HAHA.
daniel is so funny.
reminds me of leonard.
both blur blur de.
playful but quiet.

its not unpleasant to have this feeling.
its just different.

2009-06-23T07:33:00.001+08:00

supposed to meet for cmps today.
but they like so last minute then say.
i already kenna booked.
._. dumb

2009-06-22T21:06:00.002+08:00

haha finally got blogger to work.
today met up for project,
but im lazy to explain.
HAHA.
basically we had some eye candy.
ok elissa did.
i didnt wear my specs. LOL.

ate too much chips,
almost threw up. HAHA.

guess im busy tomorrow as well.
urgh.
the last week of holiday and im jam packed D:
i wanted to slack at home.
ah well.

i wonder if its too late

2009-06-20T21:32:00.002+08:00

ASAHEL.
ASAHEL.
ASAHEL
ASAHEL.
ASAHEL.
ASAHEL
ASAHEL.
ASAHEL.
ASAHEL.
ASAHEL.
ASAHEL.
ASAHEL.

I LOVE ASAHEL.
ahahahahahahaha.
more than i love camp,
i love my group.
i dont know why.
COS ASAHEL ROCKSSSSSSSS.

2009-06-20T10:19:00.002+08:00

haha started reading the fruits basket manga.
i was too lazy to read it last time rofl.
went out yesterday
in school uniform!
cos my knee injury =/
so paaaaaaaain.
im lazy to describe yesterday.
go read meixin's post.
hahahahaha.
I LOVE CAMP ZION.
I LOVE ASAHEL.
I LOVE CAMPCAMPCAMPCAMPCAMP.
I LOOOOOOOOOOOOOVE YC.
today wearing camp shirt.
campcampcampcamp

okay i shall post about what happened after meixin left.
a very undetailed post.
cos im lazeeeeeeeeeeeee.
went to white sands with seb,
seb wan draw money.
draw le then go comics collection.
then go more than words.
then go challenger.
then go home.
END.
HAHAHAHA.

oh yah seb bought me a MYUK wallet thingy.
the handphone pouch/wallet thing.
thanks seb ;D
he say its birthday present.
he got one too.
matching father and nuer hp pouch!!

went out with parents at night,
ate lots of fooooood.
gaining weight is saddening. =[
my bill has died.
but idk how much
cos no sms counter.
but 4 people suddenly became bored at the same time.
so i had to sms all four simultaneously so it baoed.
i gurantee it :D

2009-06-19T08:05:00.002+08:00

Going out today with seb qw and mx.
im going to be wearing school uni cos my leg injured cant wear jeans.
and i really need to shop for more bottoms cos thats the only one i have. =/
meeting at bugis at 1.
dad says my wound is infected.
so i have to first get rid of the blood crust around it.
rofl its so cool i want to peel it off =X
im so gross HAHAHA.
omgosh you know a spider haunted me yesterday =.=
then i scream at seb his only reaction was
" now then you sound like girl"
walao eh. never help me at all.
curse him D:
hmm still feel like vomiting.
i slept so early yesterday haha
wow really miss camp.
nevermind im gonna laugh today.
hanging out with seb and qw is always or most of the time fun.
well if you can endure their constant attacks.
camp zion really rocks for me :D
i got this weird tan line
cos of the bandage i put on when i went to sentosa.
theres no guides today
so no need to pon HAHAHAHAHA
so happy.
good luck to you camperssss
its kinda sad,
i can actually get excused from drills cos of my injury
but im still not going for camp :D
i go next year.
*smile*

trying to erase you from my mind

2009-06-18T18:39:00.004+08:00

stayed at home today
slacked with dorcas leonard and lendrix on msn.
played o2jam and stuff.
didnt go church study haha
i realized im very scared of sam.
HAHA.
and i realized idk how to talk to ppl im scared of,
so i irritate them =X
ahahaha so cool right :D
ate so much today =.=
like 4 meals. D:
sure put on weight de BLEAHS.

laughing takes me out of reality for just that one moment

unexpected.
dont have a right to feel this way.
what makes you so special.
i know i dont anymore.
so why do i still feel this way.
stop hurting me without knowing you do.
just throw me away.
what me and you had was special i thought.
something that was a secret between the 2 of us.
i wanted it to be mine only mine.
but i guess it was significant only to me.
what a fool.

2009-06-18T08:20:00.002+08:00

im a sucker for sad love stories man!
nothing can make me cry like those.
HAHAHAHAHA read manga also can cry ROFLMAO.
thats why i read manga alooooone.
SO MALU!! XD
okay i dont get malu easily LOL.
haha bored.
may follow my bro go study today.
but then,
see if i can find anyone else =/
i think not ba.
jasmine is in camp.. D:
meixin lazy ._.
see if my bro dont mind me going lor.
if he does then i dont go.

2009-06-17T12:16:00.002+08:00

just visited some anti ah lian blog.
my friend gave the link to me =O
i'll put it up
click here

seriously people talk trash like this,
putting all ah lians and bengs into this catagory,
stereotyping them.
its true that most ah lians you see are like this,
personally i dont like them myself,
but there are those good ones also.
just cos you dont like them doesnt give you the right
to put up a website and insult them.
all girls like taking pictures of themselves.
the way you talk isnt everything.
so what if people have bad english?
serious they're not good enough to judge.
at first when i entered that website,
i was like haha cool.
but then i realized it was really plain insulting.
they took pictures from the girls blog,
just to insult them.
its not a very good show of their character.
and i think at least,
when ah lians talk off about a person,
they do it in front of their face.
not hiding behind a computer screen. =/
what they're doing and what ah lians do,
are different, but just as bad.
i think though that what they're doing is worse.

2009-06-17T07:12:00.002+08:00

haha forgot to mention how i lost my voice on the third day.
anyway,
was supposed to go piano lesson yesterday.
but the moment i went to sleep,
my body realized how tired i was,
and i was really very very tired.
LOL
my eyes were like uber red and i was crying =O
well on the first day i slept like 4 hours
second day 3 and a half hours
third day never sleep
fourth day die.
LOL.
now im up early in the morning as usual.
wonder if i'll go back to sleep.
hehehe.

2009-06-16T13:42:00.002+08:00

WOW.
OMGOSH I LOVE YOUTH CAMP!!!!!!!!

Group :
ASAHEL!!!!!!!! known for SPEED.

Group leader:
Yong Liang and Sue Ean

Group members:
Grace, Nut, hwei yen, vincent, sam, edrick, jon chew, seb tan

AND IT WAS THE BEST CAMP EVERRRRRR!!!

Day One:
reached at 8am, found out i was grouped with grace.
the ice breaker we play alot of dumb games.
like big fish small fish etc
LOL at vincent.
he was like super blur.
we were like asked to make cheers.
so he was forced to say one.
but we didnt really use it cos is his sch cheer then
alot of ppl frmo his sch there LOL
one thing.
vincent likes to dance AHAHAHAHA.
he open his mouth one time we laugh ten time LOL.
during lunch we ate..
cai fan!
i didnt eat. =/
not nice and i just ate like 3 hours ago LOL.
the first real game with all other groups was called
A VERY FUN GAME
sam came halfway while we were playing.
he's so enthu LOL =DDDDD
when we played dog and bone i fell =/
gave myself an open wound.
my members were like " omgosh are you okay"
i was lah. =DDD
got a few games DAMN DAMN DAMN fun.
got human bowling =D
like they have this long long sheet of plastic,
they cover with soap and water so you can slide,
at the end got alot of plastic bottles.
you supposed to run and slide on the plastic see how many you knock down.
like human bowling.
but can only use head and shouders LOL.
we were all wet.
but we were wet to begin with HAHA
the game before that,
we supposed to cover this holey pipe,
and fill the pipe with water to let the ball float to the top.
while the other team distracts us,
by drenching us with as much water as they want.
got alot of fun games but if i describe all, its gonna take long.
after we bathed got dinner and worship.
super nice =D
had our supper, supposed to play bible smugglers.
but no time so never =[
in the end went to sleep.
but we also dun wan la cos we just bathed.
slept at like 12.30am

Day Two:
woke up at 2.30am, 4am and subsequent timings after that.
at 2.30 i go toilet with nut.
at 4am i go HQ with grace.
at 5am we go back to the room.
made grace follow me toilet to bathe at 6.
it was a sunday so we spent the whole day worshiping.
just as well.
if it was games i would have died.
that time of the month came. =/ LOL.
lucky hwei yen got the pill to stop the pain.
almost cried manzxczxczxc D:
ate spaghetti for lunch.
i ate it with a spoon! LOL.
then the game we played was davids 12 tasks.
SUPER ZAI!!!!
we ran like madddddddd.
first station was the candle one.
you supposed to blow it out. sounds easy?
catch is, you have to use your nose. LOL
sam owned at that one.
he made it look so easy!!
i think our team had super alot of team work <3333
there was the milk the cow station.
sue ean was not bad so vincent was like " wah got experience seh"
had another station we need paint this bible verse with our nose.
but my knee injured so i cant kneel,
my team never blame me at all.
but cos i had to do something, i put fullstop.
we didnt mind losing, as long as we had fun =3
we were SECOND!!!!!!!
cos we got second last on the first day,
vincent was like " today we get second :D"
hahahaha fortune teller =3
then after that we bathe.
after one more worship, we played F1 NIGHT RACING!!!!
its like you make this car out of cardboard,
then you make 2 people pull it with a person sitting.
sounds easy but alot of them got dragged off the car.
like cos at the turning.
we got the rules wrong =[
so we change player 6x instead of 3
and were like confused =[
but it was okay!! funfun
they were seriously pro manzxczxczxc.
vincent and sam are like really fast =O
we lost but, it was fun!!!
even though i didnt do anything AHAHAHA.
cos i hurt my knee cant run cant sit.
they let me make the car with them though *grins*
after that was THEGREATESCAPE.
its like a torture game.
you're humans and the camp commitee are philistines.
in simple english, they're enemies.
if they catch you, you go torture chamber.
you need to find prisims and decode stuff.
scary man.
you cant run. can only walk.
the camp commitee also lah.
we decided to split up.
at first i damn scared seh.
i dont like this kind of games de.
walked with grace, we kept getting seperated.
cos when see the enemy i walk slower,
and change direction and stuff.
she will run away.
so i found it easier to go by myself.
occasionally i saw sam or vincent or nut or sue ean.
then i will stick with them until i run away.
in the end, we went together.
small group. we tried to gather the rest of the members.
but when we found sam we could find sue ean
then sam would wander away and so would sue ean
so it was quite tough.
didnt get caught a single timeeeeee :DDDDD
it was so shiok when it finally ended
sweat like mad after that, so changed shirt.
slept at 1.30

Day Three:
woke up at 5am,
went to bathe. shu qi came along to bathe also.
slack around until 8,
met the group for quiet time.
laugh like maaaddddddddddd.
then we went to sentosa.
on the way walking to the bus,
something cut through my slipper to stab my toe.
small small cut,
but because i didnt notice it till later,
it bled.
my group members were worried for me *touched*
but it really didnt hurt.
i mean it hurt when it got stabbed, but i didnt care LOL.
they couldnt find a plaster in the first aid box,
so they took a gauze and wrapped around it.
made it look like a broken toe 0_0
haha later on, i managed to get a plaster.
went to these 2 towers linked by a bridge,
and played WORMS 2!!!
we used water bombs :DDDDDD
you tie this paper in the middle of your body,
then if the paper gets wet and dies, you die.
Sam went to Gym cos his school needs him to for rugby,
so he arrived just in time for worms 2.
he didnt know what to do.
he just chiong in front, first guy to die AHAHAHAHA.
but he was one of the most useful also =D
in the end, my group lost.
but they had fun.
i stayed out of the way cos open wound + salt water = pain
sadly... =[
after worms played ninja warrior LOL.
i couldnt participate cos need to run into the ocean,
and like crawl along the beach.
my group members refused to let me D:
maybe it was a good thing they did anyway LOL
need to fill this bucket with water from the sea,
but cant move the bucket.
so the guys ran into the ocean,
took out their shirts and like squeeze water and stuff.
later they swam inside LOL.
after that,
we ate lunch.
it was really super hot so the camp com proveded alot of water.
we bought 1.5 litres of 100plus
3.50! but then i had money on me so i pay all.
oh well. once in a lifetime opportunity. =D
on sentosa, they played the same CD over and over again.
not only did they do that, they used the WORST CD ever.
Hannah Montanna and High school musical.
ok HSM isnt that bad but HANNAH MONTANA???
got one jesse mcartney song " shes no you" also,
and one other song i think called " rockstar princess"
they played the song until i hear like 11-12 times 0_0
keep remembering the stupid HM song. =.=
after that, was THE KOREAN WAR.
you seperate the whole youths into 2 groups,
then make them build forts.
you supposed to use water bomb to destroy the fort.
or you could nuke it.
but both our nukes died AHAHAHA.
and we ran out of water bombs =/
we filled like 1000 water bombs altogether i think.
or maybe got more.
after that was DESTROY DAVIDS SHEEP.
where we bomb the camp commitee.
but this year got twist.
our group leader shielding them seh.
but you need destroy the paper in the middle of the shield.
only a few managed D:
after that, dragged xiang and robyn into the sea AHAHA.
and like smear sand on them.
robyn threw sand in my face =/
after that, we go back church.
bathe le then got CAMPFIRE!!
okay lah is barbecue.
vincent had to go worship prac,
so we kept food for him.
was really hard to start the fire,
so yong liang, glen and aaron helped.
thanks guys hahaha even though you wont see this. =3
after worship, had the AWARDS CEREMONY.
2 of our members won some prizes.
there was the gu niang award.
marcus and darren i think won it.
they had like skits to show the scenerio why they chose that.
then it was like about them talking to each other saying
" eh we let the girls do lah"
"yah we go toilet hide"
LOL
got alot of awards i lazy say.
my group won 2.
the most manly one and the cute cute award.
sam won the manly one.
cos he got caught 6x during THEGREATESCAPE
so they show they skit
it was like showing him tell the torturer
torturer: why you here?
sam: cos im so manly and strong *flex muscles*
AHAHAHAHA.
he's really damn strong though
seb won the cutecute award and he was so pissed LOL.
after that we played the game we missed.
bible smugglers!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
went in pairs again,
but met up as a group in the end.
supposed to find newspaper and decode a password.
then search for our group leader.
if the camp com catch us leading our leader to the room,
he will be relocated so must re-search.
like yong liang got relocated once LOL.
then i nagged sam until he was so pissed LOL. =X
then he was like " FINE i'll look for him myself lah!"
me hwei yen and vincent went looking,
then vincent kept singing song LOL.
" yong liang where are you yong liang?"
then so catchy until he make up more lyrics.
then when we finally end game he go make chorus.
then after that we finally let vincent have dinner.
we were like " lets cook vincent dinner"
vincent was like
" im so touched you guys saved food for me"
and he went around telling everyone LOL.
needed aaron and glens help starting the fire,
glen changed just to help us =3
the neighbours go call police cos we too noisy =.=
walao not noisy lor.
then the police came -.-
anyway had group reflection,
supposed to be serious but sam and vincent keep making us laugh.
was really fun =D
sam was like scolding vincent
" you open your mouth one time they laugh one time. SHH!"
then we just laugh more.
wah got alot of jokes sia LOL.
supposed to say like what you did well.
then vincent was like " i started the fire" LOL
everyone was joking here and there.
basically everyone was happy with our group,
we laughed alot,
tried our best,
had the most fun ( we believe)
laughed alot at our inside jokes.
didnt sleep that night,
the group dispersed at like 3.30+am
at like 5-6 plus i was bored and tired
so i go table sleep.
i think i slept one hour altogether ba.
then i walk here walk there.

Day Four:
TODAY WAS SO SAD.
the last last last day of camp TT
i wan our group back next year lor walao D:
we had macs for breakfast.
milo and sausage mcmuffin.
then we packed up, had AUCTION time.
its when they auction off all the things they didnt use.
but its like non-profitable.
unless camp com lucky lah.
like they bid off alot of random things.
kaya, butter, watermelon... etc
then like its really hua suan.
then they started like bullying people.
like YONG LIANG BID 2 DOLLAR
then they forced him to buy toilet paper and masking tape.
LOL.
but thats 8 rolls of toilet paper and 6 masking tapes for 2 bucks.
worth it man!!
but i wouldnt buy it haha ;D
had phototaking, so fun :D

in the end, went home D:
SO SAD.
had a lift from juliana and joyce's father. =DDDDDD
kor pang seh me go hang out with gluefish.
i wish i could've gone =[
but its his cell dont need be so extra.
so peggy also hitched a ride.
she going juliana house.
so all of us were talking about how funny gluefish guys are.
and how tall they are.
we were saying the cool one was jon,
then sociable one was vincent,
the crazy one was marcus,
the strong one was sam.
but we only know like these 4 LOL.
i dont really know them all that well anyway.
i just know they're damn kick-ass funny :D
i havent laughed so much in so long.
4 days in a row man!

2009-06-12T07:38:00.002+08:00

going for guides now.
unsure if i have time to post =/
well i'll just edit when i come home then =D

yesterday went bugis with seb, qw, kw and mx
supposed to meet at 130
me and mx reached at 2 =X
kw reached at 1
seb reach at 140+
qw reach at 150+
they say they go arcade we thought they go the childrens one LOL
so we go there then cant find them.
in the end they at the other arcade =[
i dun like that arcade so scary.
at first we dun wan straight away go de.
cos i know they will slack there lor.
never mind.
in the end go find them.
qw was standing watching seb and kw play.
then we watch for like 10 minutes then mx strangle qw =3
then i tickle him.
then we got intensive quarreling for like 10 minutes
then in the end we wait another 15 minutes then we decide to go up.
by we i mean me and mx.
qw was like " you pangseh us right"
then in the end we go slack at macs.
then i felt bad so ask mx sms him if he wan pei us.
then we wan bring him to womans department LOL. =D
went to NBC.
mx decided to spoil another animal.
she spoils something everytime she goes there.
seriously man.
next time must handcuff her =D
seb and kw met us there at NBC then we slack around.
well we did but the moment she spoilt that thing we went out of there.
then we go back to the big shopping centre.
then i was being insulted over and over again 0_0
so i was like " i go hooooooooome"
then i tried to find the mrt then gave up HAHA.
so went for MOS.
seb was so hungry he keep eating mints.
kai treat me 5 chicken nuggets =D
yup then seb and qw went to order.
then they complain their food take so long to come.
then qw complaining that time the lady serve
then serve him sebs meal.
the one with 2 fries.
cos she put their fries together.
then qw thought his hotdog kenna squash into hamburger shape.
in the end is sebs one.
then seb was like " i tot is ba zang sia"
then we kept opening their chilli and tomatos.
cos meixin try open then she cant LOLLLLL.
thats talent man.
in the end she manage to open 2.
after WE opened it and turned it to the back LOL.
played arm wrestling.
not me, not mx, the boys.
seriously man it was intense 0_0
* will be edited later in the day *

2009-06-11T07:42:00.002+08:00

yesterday went out with tk.
cos he got things to talk about with me.
then i so bored so i went out.
supposed to meet at 1 at white sands,
end up meet at 1230 cos he was early.
went to macs, i was full LOL
so he ate i watch him.
but he keep looking at tv.
he's so deprived. AHAHA.
then walked around,
went to seans house.
he wanted me to do quest for him by 230.
so at 2 we went to his house.
in the end the quest canceled. =O
so we slacked.
jayden was at his house. my cute nephew.
i call for him then he run away.
then tk laugh
then i ask him call lor
then he dun wan say scared baby reject him. LOL.
in the end the baby DID reject him i laugh like maddddd.
then we tried to play audition.
but the com was so lag i press the com dont register.
so tk just kept laughing at me 0_0
then we watch nigahiga on youtube
both laugh like crazy.
then we were on the bus to bedok cos need meet my mum there.
then got these sec 2 boys SO NOISY.
so i was complaining to tk.
then tk was like saying very loud
" SOME PEOPLE LIKE TO TALK VEH LOUD HOR"
then i laugh and say
" NO RESPECT FOR OTHER PEOPLE IN THE BUS MA"
then they still talk damn loud leh. wtf.
then they were like " I VERY HANDSOME MA"
then i was like.
" YAH DAMN HANDSOME SIA. HOT LAH HOT"
then one guy need alight everyone say bye.
then tk say
" BYE!!!!"
then we reach the interchange they still walking behind us.
then they were making weird noises we go copy them LOL.
stupid sec 2 boys.
at first tk was like " are you sure they not primary school boys"
some dont look like secondary school LOL.
then in bedok we slack at sheng siong.
tk pei me wait for my mum *grins*
then we were throwing things at one another.
then one hit the passerby OMG.
tk keep showing off his new shuffling skills LOL.
in the end at 550 i send him to the mrt,
stay at the bus stop wait for my mum :D

2009-06-10T07:57:00.002+08:00

saw meixin blog and was inspired to complain about my phone too.
the function keys dont work!!
whooooooooooooots!
cant backspace!
cant hang up calls!
cant call people!
cant options!
cant shortcut pictures!
sometimes people cant hear me!
cant save inbox!

well besides all that,
BUY THIS PHONE IT ROCKS =DDDD

thanks teng teng =3

2009-06-08T09:18:00.003+08:00

haha got meixin playing nostale too.
the beginning got super alot of quests.
but thats why its easy to lvl.
im stuck at 19 hard to lvl after that =[
yesterday steamboat then the movie TERMINATOR SALVATION.
its nice leh =DD
i needed to pee like really badly
but i tahan cos its so cool.
the popcorn got damn alot left then the drinks got one cup left.
well if i need to pee whats the logical reasoning for drinking more?

well before that mum and dad drove me to church.
like after their pop outing
then jp was there,
and he didnt look happy.
like that face that says
' you quit syrens so what are you doing here'
cos im always there cos my parents are always there
and he cant like say anything cos my parents are well,
important? HAHA.
he greets normal people with a smile,
but with me he just looks away.
HAHA so funny =3
bet he was glad to get me out of syrens.
he cant control me or scold me or whatever.
well not that much anyway.

gosh im HUNGRY. D:
meeting up with seb and qw on thursday.
its been a long time since we went out the 4 of us.
cos other times got alot of other people.
yupyup
Thursday is our family bonding day. LOL
seb admits he misses us HAHA
-smile-
now its time for qiwei to stop denying it too.
haha!

yesterday ate damn alot.
neck pain D:

2009-06-07T13:49:00.001+08:00

today i spent my day sneezing 0_0
went to church early in the morning,
slacked until 1030
led worship then went to class.
ethel and i were playing like hahahahaha
i am so TIRED.
tired of sneezing.
0_0

2009-06-06T13:15:00.002+08:00

wow so bored today
yesterday was absolutely tiring.
woke up at 6am, reached home at like 11.30pm
whole day cant rest at all. x.x
dug holes in the ground until my hands hurt even now.
pull string for gadgets until my hands still got red markings.
sooo sooo tired.
my shin had a cramp yesterday also.
hurt like crappppp.
drama rehearsal was super tiring.
stupid glen and his " sashimi maker"
saw ian after so many months =O
they were all there making the worship book.
min yi in charge of puppets for the drama.
she do until so CUTE.
muscle aches man...
supposed to make specs today
but in the end change AGAIN.
so sian can.
yah then, oh yah
yesterday was having our secret mission with birdy.
ummirah was with us for awhile also.
adrenaline rush man!
one thing after another LOL.
i love bridging <3
cos of that, didnt have to go thru massive drills.
i thought they were like NPCC or something.
i heard them from the classroom.
but they went like " satu dua satu dua"
and only guides does that.
yea...
wah hand damn tired now.
*rests*

2009-06-04T20:15:00.001+08:00

( the pet fox cute right!! xD - too bad its level 1.. my sheep lvl 14 so im using that LOL )

WELL.
on the bright side,
i wont be bored tomorrow. haha
since i was pratically bored to death today.
played nostale,
sims 2,
watched goong S,
blogged, learnt a new piano song ( first page)
and..
wait for it...
MATH.
HOMEWORK.

WAAHAHAHAHA.
* feels accomplished*

2009-06-04T16:28:00.000+08:00

WAH TOMORROW SO SIAN
8 GO SCHOOL.
10 GO GUIDES.
5 GO BISHAN
730 GO BEDOK FOR DRAMA REHEARSAL.

WALAAAAAAAOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

sighs
not looking forward to that

2009-06-03T19:57:00.002+08:00

whoa man this guy really got me stunned.
i wonder if i'll ever play piano as well as him 0_0
his hands are seriously moving so fast they're a blur.
he made a medly out of a whole bunch of songs.
18 minutes of piano spammage man.
im in disbelief.
i wanted to learn hikari,
then i saw the scores and decided.. next time.
and he learnt THAT and like a whole big bunch of HARDER stuff.
his name is sebastian. LOL
im seriously in awe.
AWE.
he makes it look so easy but OMGOSH.
go see go see

CLICK HERE

2009-06-03T19:02:00.000+08:00

i dont know whether to believe or not.
but i decided im not going to care.
just forget it

2009-06-03T14:33:00.003+08:00

idk why i wanted to believe
believe that you wouldnt lie to me over something as simple as this.
sad about the fact you did it in the first place,but
then i felt worse after you lied.
i wanted to forget that you did it.
all i wanted was to know if you had the courage to tell the truth
dare to do, dare to own up.
you'd even lie to your best friend?
i already knew but i didnt say anything.
just had to admit and everything would have been okay
dont take me for a fool.

2009-06-03T12:17:00.002+08:00

wow came back from math bridging
met teng at whitesands at like 7
but we supposed to meet at 645 cos of the tengs idea.
reached school at like 740
slack at 7-11 then at calex.
in the end cant find the classroom so was late.
then the teacher go nag me -.-
scold me for not putting on name tag.
then scold me for not paying attention
she scold me 2x okay!!
then i was like er whatever.
cos i was drawing
then later she come my desk while i was smsing
i almost kenna caught okay.
then after that she saw my paper gpot drawing she was like
" so you were drawin? i tot you were doing my work i had a good impression"
walao good impressoin still want scold me =.=
haha was playing nostale.
i keep having to remember the name
went back with grace
meixin and teng staying back after science to study
ha-ha i dont think so lor the slackers :D
at least i slack i admit LOLL
yes the pure and innocent me.

i was ready to forgive you if only you told the truth.

2009-06-02T15:22:00.003+08:00

today was so slack
played nostale with sean haha!
then 1+ he go windsurfing
so i was waiting for mx to download play with me
in the end she cant 0_0
her com cant handle.
wah sad sad.
gosh these few days so boreddddd
and its only the second day
i cant even tell you how much im looking forward to piano!
cos really im not. -.-
i never practice again. ARGH.

i dont know what you cant get it. i told you plainly LEAVE ME ALONE.

2009-06-01T13:56:00.003+08:00

first day of holidays.
IM ALREADY BORED OUT OF MY WITS.
WHAT RUBBEEEEEESSSSSSSSSSSSSH.
im trying to download o2 jam
i havent played it in like forever
i heard it was closed down and stuff
well i even experienced it first hand but
for some reason the site is still there
and since im majorly bored
i'll just try downloading it haha =D
i miss it man seriously.
i remember the good old days~
2 years ago~
haha!

I CANT WAIT FOR YOUTH CAMPPPPPPPPPPPPPP
it'll be super fun!
and on that day,
i'll kill amos for not telling me who my camp leader is
im like dying here
damn i hate being curious TT
screw the past now's what's important

2009-05-31T21:24:00.002+08:00

went to gdop today
before that got kindy.
ETHEL IS FINALLY OPENING UP <<33
she's so super cute lah!!
met jasmine at 12.35
then we took bus planned to eat at kfc
then met amos and gang
then he invite us to follow his cell
haha seriously they're so dumb
saw shauna jia wen bao yu and nicole at mrt.

at expo saw the rest of the sec 2 boys
oh yah met zhi wei and matthew at tanah merah
met min yi also haha!

today's matthew birthday LOL
he kenna taupok yesterday
by 6 people, he was screaming.
wei ren wouldnt let him forget it.

zhi wei ask me help him buy drink at bk
then yong liang and amos wont let him LOL
in the end matthew and zhi wei settled for stealing.
mine and jasmine's drink.
it was FINISHED.
i drank like so little T.T
haha!
amos was like going on about being a gentlemen and stuff
LOL thats all amos and yong liang are trying to drill into them
they're gonna get brainwashed one day
which is.. GOOD. WAHA.

oh yah!
amos they all know who i grouping with
BUT THEY DUN WAN TELL ME.
i bet its not with yong liang
100% chop sign gurantee.
cos they say my group sure lose T.T
aiyah WHATEVER !@#$%^&

waited outside in the HEAT for like one hour?
LOL SO FUNNY.
sam sat on amos shoulder then they keep turning in circles
then he fan them like some oscallating fan
so many people wearing black..
OUR SEXY YC SHIRT!!
just realized the white stuff spells YC
i thought it was like some bird or something HAHA.

went back with my bro and nut and hwei yan
kor was spazzing as usual with nut,
i walked behind with hwei yan.

woots cant wait for church camp
=DDDDDDDDDD

2009-05-30T19:03:00.002+08:00

i hate you i hate you i hate you.
pretending to be such a good girl.
scolding everyone thats wrong.
when thats something you are yourself.
when can you stop being such a bitch?
two-faced and yet you dont care.
you know, but you cant change.
you'll never be liked.
not when you cant even like yourself.
act pitiful when your life is far from sad.
surrounded with people who arent real.
living in your world of make pretend.
refusal to wake up to reality.
shielding yourself from attacks
yet attacking constantly.
a ball with spikes that kills
both you and those around.
destined to be alone forever
so closed up and tight inside
no one knows the real you

2009-05-29T14:05:00.003+08:00

its hard to tell who's a friend and who's not anymore.
tired of living in this world of pretend.
no one's real anymore.
dont give me that shit about trying to be friendly
cos the moment you're not with me
you're talking about what a bitch i am behind my back
stop bitching about me.
dont like me?
stay away no one told you to come.

jealousy is an ugly emotion.
it makes you do ugly things.
afraid of being hated for something so dumb?
dont do dumb things then.
i hate the fact that you didnt just say it out.
you actually went and put your thoughts into actions.
my good friend?
stop decieving yourself.
if i could tell you exactly what i think, i would.
but i have no intention of having to handle the crying you.

stop playing innocent

2009-05-27T19:20:00.002+08:00

little girl living in your own little world where everyone's wrong and you're right

im bored
so im posting again
but i got nothing to say
oh yah me and birdy made a poem today

roses are red
violets are blue
i had a little boo boo
when i tried to tie my shoe
the sky was like shoe white
so clean filled with kites
i sang karaoke
while i did the hokey pokey

HAHA AWESOME AINT IT.
sang with sam in the class today LOVE STORY!
for awhile
i cant reach it 0_0
so the high parts all throw to her.
it was funnn~
i cant sing but they keep trying to make me sing
then i sing shannon hide behind meixin LOL.
i owe her one nice flying kick.

samantha really sing damn nice
its a pleasure to sing with her
HAHA
i had the honor of going back home with her today =D

its annoying when you just dont get it

2009-05-27T19:02:00.003+08:00

went guides today =O
i know its amazing =D tyty
im like so guai lah~
before that i go english remedial =D
with birdy and jiawen and diona.
at first we finish le saw the jc people there
dun dare go lah!
but i need my attendance
so i was going to go alone..
then ning xin and grace came =D
so we werent alone
so in the end they pei me :DDDDD
it was so slack anyway
HAHA cos we went after foot drills.
we wanted to go for at least abit
but never mind =DDDD
saw cher lyn and anita and claudia? at the back of the class
they so emo lah!
like sit there no lights 0_0

oh yea parvin was taking to me about the clique thing
i missed out her clique the ANITA CLIQUE.
LOL
okay lets try not to miss anyone out

MALAY CLIQUE 1
insyrah
ummirah
nellysa
ardilla
izzah
norazah
nadia
lyanna
emylia

MALAY CLIQUE 2
haifaa
syafiqah

SJB CLIQUE
deborah
elissa
meixin
tengteng
joemin
shannon?
sarah?
birdy?

ANITA CLIQUE
anita
cher lyn
jane
parvin

GUAI CLIQUE
jia wen
denise
shauna
rachel wu

BIMBOTIC CLIQUE
samantha
nicole wong
bao yu
kristen

THE PAIR
emily and nicole tan

NON-CLIQUE CLIQUE
joleen
i chun
michelle
vanessa
batul
diona
elizabeth
kelly
carine
emily lim

hmm i guess thats it? =D
oh DNT was super retarded.
mrs wong dun wan say please and thank you =[
boo her

2009-05-26T15:29:00.002+08:00

today so slack!!
and so HOT.
sweat like some sjb woman.
oh yea then in the bus we go home right
i was thinking scarley see joses
then really see sia!
he so tall gan ma????
i was like is that really him *stare stare stare*
but he never say hi
like he never even look at me lah =.=
aiyah dc him =3
later sms him to scold him haha